Allow me to introduce myself...

I am really over thinking this journal. How it is to be this formal record of my thoughts, feelings, and experiences. 

I was just thinking of how my life is. I have a good job, a great marriage, a beautiful wife and daughter. My adopted son is an issue but I don't think it will be one any longer. What defines a person? Is it the thing he owns or the people he or she surrounds themselves with? Are you a reflection of your surroundings? When I haven't seen someone for a while and they ask me How I am doing, I talk about my wife or my daughter. they are worthy subjects and I am very proud of them both. I love them but I get the feeling that I am not as important. that I am just here to support them. Is that what defines me? Am I the support guy? I like solving problems, I don't seek out the spotlight I like for my people to be taken care of. It's what I do in my job it's what I do at home. if I am not doing for someone I feel I could just sit and watch the world. I used to people watch a lot when I worked in the city. now I come home check on my wife, check on my daughter, go down to my basement (Man cave) and do things that mostly waste time. That is the reason I decided to go back to school, to figure out who I am to be me in a setting where no one is depending on me to resolve their issues. this is my sixth term back and I am losing motivation I don't really care what I major in. Sometime I believe that formal education does not meet my goals the way I would like. my goals are fluid. some days I want to learn how to edit movies, use a 3d design app, how to build better electronic devices. I think that I am very eclectic in what I want to learn. I love to learn but the formal learning can get tedious. 

but I was rambling about Identity. (capital I) I know a lot of things about myself. I am intelligent. It is my nature to assess everything around me all the time. I don't think it is conscious act anymore. so when I see someone do something I try to understand why, not just how. I am very good at compartmentalizing things. I rarely panic. I am not a passionate person. but I love my wife and family totally.  I think of myself as a true OG (Original Geek) Comic books, Tabletop Role Playing Games. Sci-Fi, Fantasy. I am very old school in my nerdom. these are some of the things I know about me. I endeavor to inform when I speak and there is no better conversation than when knowledge is exchanged and both parties have learned something new. 

High point of my day: Knowing that the Movie "Black Panther" has been released. and the significance it holds.

 Low point of my day: Sitting at the help desk with nothing to do for almost two hours straight.